I've only had forty minutes of sleep, so if I make lots of mistakes while I'm typing, forgive me.
What's been happening in my life? This is the question. Currently, my car is in a shop getting repaired (alternator for you Americans reading this and know what an alternator is) - and I am waiting for Cameron to get out of class in like...2 and a half hours. I had to find something to do, so I decided to write this.
I have a girlfriend now. She's a pretty girl from Russia, and she's smart as well, or at least appears that way. Her name is Svetlana, and I think that she would probably like to visit here one day or maybe I will go to Russia (again). For those of you that didn't know, my Russian is good enough to get around, although not fluent in any aspect. Did I mention I am really tired? Maybe I'll create the ultimate writing out of this time that I can't think straight. I might end up repeating myself.

I just played Metal Gear Solid 4, for the Playstation 3, and no, I'm not rich, I happen to live with a guy who owns one...And never uses it. I bought MGS4 simply so I could play it, it's a great game. I feel connected with Snake in a lot of ways, and am intrigued by the many different stories or lessons the game seems to try to give you throughout. At the end of MGS for PS1, Naomi Hunter is talking in the background and says "The important thing is that you just choose life, and then live!" This is a very true statement. I want to live life, to be a happy man. But there are a lot of things that aren't so easy to achieve. Monetary status being one of them. Sure, I get paid 600 a month by the government. But I never had any kind of family support to get me anywhere. Not that I'm complaining, actually I think that I have a lot of potential. And, in fact, my confidence is slowly rising. Through the pain and sufferering I've endured, things seem to be getting clearer. I seem to go from being either apathetic to optimistic, which is a normal sign of people who are enduring hardships. I hope that through the hardships I'll eventually accept what is going on. Because currently, I do not think that I can accept my life as is.

So now, what to do to make life better for myself? First of all, I need my car to be a stable car, either that or have a bicycle, in which I could get pretty easily. I just don't want to ride around THIS town in a bicycle. If I was in Columbia...It would be a different story. Or Stockholm. Weird news by the way everyone, told me that she was in South Africa. That's pretty goddamn bizarre, isn't it? And I don't know why. Maybe she was lying to me or something, hoping I don't come chasing her in Malmo, Sweden. If I go back to Sweden, it's not for her though, I love that fucking place. It's heaven on earth...Except for the whole visa thing. I would appreciate some advice everyone, leave me some messages, tell me what you think, because it's the end of the world as we know it!!!! :D

There comes a time in everyone's life, in which, whether they realize it or not, they are in the middle time period. And in this "middle time period", must they understand where they're at, and where they want to be. Sometimes the end cam seem ridiculously far away, but alas, it is always within reachable distance, as long as the goal is not something impossible. It's difficult to be impossible, unless you're really disabled.
You need to be smart, too, in order to see ahead in life. It's like chess. Currently, I'm developing my pieces in my life, I'm making money, to go to Arizona, to teach chess, in August. And to go to school (I sure hope so...) in fall. I realize that money is not easy to get, but hopefully I can work things out in order for me to get a car and for me to be able to get around 3000 dollars. That's a lot of money, but I should be getting enough to save.
Chess goes decent for me, relationships, well, there are none. I have contacted an ex-model who tells me she is very interested in me, but it seems....Well..I don't know if I should say too much about this...It could become something, but you know, I have to be skeptical, I would like to feel that things will likely work out but judging from my past, it's not so easy to get a girlfriend. Having a girlfriend can really be fun, from my experience, however.
I think that the last time that I was writing seriously in Xanga, I had been a Christian, and luckily those beliefs have changed to the much more logical agnosticism. Surprisingly, a lot of people don't know the meaning of being agnostic. Guys, check it out! It's important thing to understand religion if you're going to base your beliefs on it. It's not good to be over emotional, but to learn the truth for yourself (which in my opinion is impossible thus I am agnostic). Good luck to everyone reading this! I will now write an entry in Swedish, in order to practice.
Faktist, har jag hittade en man fran nordia. Han ar en fin man och kan prata pa svenska med mig. Honom och jag ska ata klockan nio pa onsdag. Jag vill mycket hellre prata eller skriva pa svenska an engelska. Engelska ar saaaa....boring! Vad ar omkring engelska, varfor pratar allt nationer i helig varlden engelska? Jag vet inte om det...Kanske skulle vi allt tala svenska, det blir mer roligt, eller kanske just for mig.

I'm bringing Xanga back - drop a comment if you're with me!